"Slump? I ain't in no slump. I just ain't hittin."
What a crazy weekend, eh? A tornado in downtown Atlanta? CRAZY. I live about 6 miles from downtown so my house was unscathed, but the winds were pretty fierce that night. It's amazing how much damage mother nature can do in literally 7 minutes. I feel so sorry for the people who's homes were destroyed...
It's 9:30pm and I am finishing up my last round of ice then heat before bed.
Yesterday I went against orders and ran for 30:00 just to see what would happen. It seemed ok during the run but afterwards, my back felt like I was walking with a 2-ton truck mounted on me. Argh.
Annoyed by yesterday, today I rode for 45:00 on an indoor bike. I'm not sure what it is about my personality that seems to need punishment. I was so mad at my body for hurting after the run yesterday that I thought to myself, 'I'll show you! See how you like a ride today!' I seriously need A LOT of therapy. :)
To my surprise, I didn't feel excessive soreness when I dismounted. This was encouraging. I stretched right away and tried to keep moving in solid lateral movements so I wouldn't tighten up. (This seems to help?)
Later, when I tried to do my PT exercises, my back was all tight and icky, and I couldn't stand well. So much for the good ride.
Everything seems hit or miss. Some days a random activity will be ok... most days it doesn't seem to matter what I do... the result is the same.
I am not one for resolutions per annum. But this year, I decided I would resolve to stretch my ideals and practices beyond what I knew. If I were to be presented in a context where I had not been, I would choose it over the comforts of the familiar. I battle constantly my fear of the unknown, my fear of change. For me, this fear can be debilitating. I can only confront one internal demon at a time: for now, it's trying to walk into the cave of unfamiliar, my deepest fear, and do so with courage.
I'd say I am certainly getting my chance to walk into unknowns.... and despite my veneer of bravado, I am just as terrified...